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I'm still working away on this Mythos story. I feel like it is too expositiony, but I also like parts that I have written. Maybe I can rearrange stuff a bit once I have more written to give it more punch. I don't have a whole ton of time, but as it is for submission I really need it to be *good*. I'm trying to keep faith that there is even a chance the effort could pay off (literally, as in pay decent cash monies). We shall see!

Despite the timing conflict, I did sign up for Chocolate Box. I guess we'll see how that goes? I dunno though, I feel very out of touch with fandom (this is not new).

Tomorrow I go back to the museum for volunteering. We'll see how that goes. Probably I should check that email.... Whoops, it looks like they were hoping I would be in today, d'oh. Well at least I have stuff to do (maybe) tomorrow. Depending on who is around :p Or maybe Friday? *more emailing ensues* We are opening the VR exhibit next week, and I've been pretty involved with that, so it's pretty cool to see it come together!

Other things.... today was not a super productive day. I made banana bread with the kids, though, and played with them, and was accidentally viciously headbutted (the underside of my nose still hurts, despite icing!). I did manage to get up before 10, with the help of my alarm. Tomorrow I have to get up at 7, though, pleh. Well, assuming I go in then and not Friday. However there is knitting tomorrow night regardless, and it will be nice to go be social in person, and maybe make some progress on that sock I ripped back.

I didn't go see Rogue One again last night. I had my weeks mixed up. Next week!

I think that's all I've got for you today. Peace, journal peeps!
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I just wanted to quickly write this down before I go to bed, because I had a really nice day, all in all.

Nary and co. were here overnight, and it is always nice to have some time with her and her family. We had a mix of Chinese leftovers and McDonalds foods for lunch, then just hug around talking until it was time for them to go.

After they left, I went and played with my nephews downstairs - they'd both gotten a wooden shield and sword for Christmas, so I brought out my practice sword (from Hollow Earth Swordworks, though I got mine at the Texas Renaissance Fair several years ago now), and we did some sparring games. Then we had a chat about how playing with swords could be dangerous even if you are trying really really hard to be safe careful (and they were so good about light hits! But not always as good about always knowing where their blade is. Spatial awareness is an ongoing battle; there is a reasons the swords are downstairs or outside toys!). Then we transitioned into story time! In which all three of us took turns telling stories, mostly about pirates. I told a few true pirate stories, then Bubby insisted they had to be pretend stories. So I told one about Captain Garrett and the Magic Treasure. After which he told one about Captain Garackle who stole the magic treasure from Captain Garrett. After which I told one about Garrett's crew saving their skeleton friend and swearing revenge. It was a nice little story building exercise, anyway! Nugsy was less confident in his stories, but he did tell a few, including one about a fighter who was friends with a Creeper, and a Creeper family, and some other ones. And then he made me read him one of their pirate books instead.

Anyway, it was really nice! I hope they had as nice a time as I did, but they certainly seemed to.
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This morning's Facebook memory was that my graduation was three years ago today. I still have mixed feelings about my degree and I'm not sure I'll ever get over them. And that about sets up the mood for this post. )

I'm not sure why it is easier to make any kinds of posts when all I have is meh news.... maybe because when I'm feeling better I'm doing other stuff and it is harder to find the time. I dunno, I'll try and balance things out, I feel like when I do make long posts it is always the same thing in just slightly different iterations. I need some new icons but I don't know what they should be.

ETA: Of course, having posted this, I just got a notification from a position I applied for back in March - they want to test my language skills. Not quite an interview, but a step in that direction I guess! And better than crickets.
Mood:: 'melancholy' melancholy
Music:: Probably if I'd remembered to turn some on I'd be in a better mood.
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I can't seem to get back on track with these! Hopefully I'll manage that, but at least I'm still posting, right?

Anyway, <user=tethys123. asked me to talk about living with little kids and how it has affected me. So, to clarify the situation here - I am living with my sister and brither-in-law and my two nephews (Eldest: HD or Bubby or boo, or bubby-boo. Youngest: GH or Nugsy, or the Nug, or Teensy, Tiny Teenser, Teensy Nug, Nug Bug, etc. My room shares a room with theirs. So a few obvious and superficial things - Kids are little time sucks! They want attention, and when they are around even things that only involve them indirectly can take a lot longer than it should. They aren't exactly paragons of efficiency - things that do involve them can take a Really Long Time. Since I started working, I'm usually the first adult awake. The kids are usually up either before me (way less of this lately) or between when I get up and when their dad does, so I am often getting them their morning fruit in the morning, or just chatting and directing them. In the evenings, I'm usually the first line against post-bedtime excusrions, since I'm usually in my room and hear them. They also want me to play with them, all the time. They are pretty much always playing some make believe game - being characters from whatever show they have been watching, or game they have been playing. I'm getting to do a lot more roleplaying than ever, let me tell you! Even if I'm not actually paying with them, they consider this important. (Them: Can you be Starfire from Teen Titans Go? Me: I have to walk the dogs, sweetie. Them: Well can you be Starfire who has to walk the dogs?). I have my own OC supervillain also, the Terrible Tickler, who is probably the most in-demand original character I have ever created ;p He has an extensive back story. And a sidekick. I try to help with kid things, reinforcing things their parents are doing, following their lead when it comes to language and lessons and such. I feel like if I am living here, I need to be engaged on that level. I help the kids when they need help, and I will help reinforce boundaries that they need to grow up into excellent people. This is easy because their parents are pretty awesome - I've never been in a situation where I'm uncomfortable about the sort of message the kids are getting from them. If I didn't share value I think it could be a lot more awkward. Um what else..... I have wiped way more butts than I ever expected to at this stage of my life? Fewer now that I'm working, and especially since the older boy is becoming more independant in his bathroom habits. This kind of goes along with the above, I guess. I also do bedtimes on occasion, but that's more like babysitting than regular life routine. I dunno - there is definitely more to say. I love them a whole lot, and I feel really lucky to be able to spend this much time with them when they are little. I am defintely going to miss them whenever I move on from where I am now. I've talked some about that with the older one - I'm pretty sure he'd be sad. the littler one doesn't like it when I go to work, but he is in a generally pretty clingy phase, so I don't think that is really specific to me. I expect there will be a lot of disappointment all around.... But for now, I'm really happy to be where I am.
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Megan the Cruel, a.k.a. [profile] tethys123, asked me to talk about job searching and my feeling on it.

I haven't really been actively pursuing my jobsearch since I landed the position I have now. This is a little foolish of me, since this position ends in June. Probably. I mean maybe they will get more money and want to keep me? But there is absolutely no certainty in that regard, and I am really not counting on it.

While I haven't been *searching*, I have heard of a few jobs that I could be applying for, and I have been doing a very minimal amount of work towards preparing to do so. I should be doing more.

There are reasons for this, as follows (this is the feels part):

I really like my living situation, on the whole. While I wish I had better access to my things, and I especially wish we could manage better pet integration because I miss having Maze around all the time, I love living with my family, I love being so close to [personal profile] naryrising (Oh and [personal profile] forthright, him too ;), and I like the town I'm living in. My sister and BiL may complain it is Montreal, but it is also no College Station, and in a good way ;p I am reluctant to hurry away fro that towards a career I feel ambivalent about. Especially when I can feel ambivalent about my career right here ;p

The other thing is that one of the jobs I mentioned is academic. I have a lot of ~feelings~ about my degree, the value of my education, my ability to perform in that kind of environment, and if I am being completely honest with myself, my desire to do so. I think I could do it an do well at it, but I feel very ambivalent about some aspects of it. Some of if is probably just impostor syndrome. But I don't think that's it entirely. I think there were actually serious flaws with my education :p There are aspects that are very appealing. It would be a good cool job in a location that is in some regards extremely appealing. Less in others :p Part of me is really excited and part of me wants to just hide forever. I will definitely apply, but even then I think it will be fairly competitive, so we'll see.

And the other job is at the sister institution to my current job, with a lot more responsibility (but maybe also a lot more power, I dunno), but farther away from everyone, so I dunno. I probably have a leg up there, at this point...

Ambivalent. That is my feels. I don't know how to get over my issues surrounding my degree, but if I could figure that out I think it would help a lot :p
Mood:: 'contemplative' contemplative
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My day today:

I was the first one awake, so I got the kids breakfast and hung out with them until I got off my butt to take the dogs out. I put on an episode of rescue Bots for them before I left, and it was just finishing up when I got back. Then Nugsy (the littler one) wanted to watch a youtube show, so I set him up with that, forgetting that he isn't supposed to watch stuff unsupervised any more because he is a champ at finding things that are age inappropriate. I went downstairs to play the Rainbow Pony boardgame with HD. By then other adults were up who coudl keep a eye on Nugsy, so HD and I played some more board games (Candyland - boring! and Robot Turtles a.k.a. stealth-teach kids how to code). Meanwhile, wererogue was making scones, which were delicious. They were pretty much ready as soon as we were finished our last game ;p

After that, I bummed around om the internet for a bit, trying to get motivation to do just about anything other than read facebook and chat. I finally got myself to do some knitting, but was then dragged away to go to a "yard sale" a.k.a. hoarder sale at a nearby church with Longpig and Nugsy while wererogue took HD out to buy some skates. There is a church just around the block that pretty much has a perpetual yard sale - really it is filled with stuff, mostly furniture, that is sold for super duper cheap. I got a $5 crock pot for work (finishing 3D prints involves a hot wax treatment, but we'd never yet bothered.... but I think we should, so i am facilitating). Longpig got this church pew kneeling bench thing after they confirmed that it was, in fact something for sale.

After our first foray but before going back for the bench, we went to the fish and chips place for lunch and ordered entirely too much food, all of which was delicious. Every time I go there I think about ordering something other than the fish, but I never do, because it is sooo goooood. At least this time I was wise enough to know that I wouldn't be able to also handle a milkshake, so I didn't bother. Nugsy had one though, and I had a few sips of his.

When we got back, I did do some knitting... several hours of knitting, actually (I did three rows! 1 row is about 360 stitches so I feel like that is fairly impressive...), + chatting. Then it was dinner (grocery store pizza that wererogue bought because he was late getting home), then some Dominion online (does anyone else out there play? Wanna try a game sometime? My sister has a few of the expansions), and some chatting, and I worked on my spinning (I got a drop spindle for Christmas :3), and that brings me to now, when I should go to bed.

Tomorrow is game. I should do laundry. I should change my sheets. I should work on a syllabus for a job application. I should do a more serious thinking write up for here that I have been meaning to do but keep forgetting about, if I can remember what it is meant to do about. I look forward to seeing what all I get done :)
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Just a short update, as I haven't done one in ages. I meant to do one after Fan Expo... Ahhh well. It was fun!

I am currently back at my cousin's place for Thanksgiving, and stuffed after dinner, which was delicious! We're waiting to have pie (three kinds, homemade apple and squash, and blueberry from a bakery). All is well, I guess - good food and good company.

Not much else if interest had been going on with me. I had a job interview but haven't heard anything back yet. I have applied to some other things, one of them local and that I might have a good shot at... It is very short term though, so, as always, we'll see!

I've been doing a lot of knitting, but I need to get back to my shawl too. I made a cowl and some kid socks and am 3/4 the way through a pair of fingerless gloves. I do have some other things queued as well - a hat and then some socks for my dad, so that should keep me going for a bit.

I'm not sure I really have much to report at this time but feel free to ask me about stuff!
location: Cousin's place
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It is one hour until Hannibal. I actually watched it yesterday, but [personal profile] longpig is a super-invested fannibal and likes to watch the US airing on a stream and livetweet, and I join her. This week's episode is intense and amazing!

It has been a while since I've done any kind of major update.

I still have no job. I have been dooing very poorly at applying for jobs.

For the past two weeks I have been volunteering for two afternoons a week at the Ontario Museum of Archaeology. It's been.... very nice actually, even though I have done much that is particularly complicated or anything. Just getting out of the house and having something to work at is nice. I've done some re-boxing of artifacts and last week got to play 'where's Waldo' with a bunch of lithics that a donor wanted returned. The collection had been removed from its mounts with permission, but then the donor recanted about one particular show piece, so we had to find all the points (mostly points) on the original mount based on one picture, and then remount them. I got to do a lot of both of those things. They keep saying they are going to get me to write a blog on nautical archaeology, but we'll see. The commute is about an hour each way, including wait times for buses. I've been getting quite a lot of knitting done in that time, to the point that i am trying to plan my next bit of bus knitting.

This weekend was Nugsy's actaul birthday party, which was held at the local Children's Museum. It was dinosaur themed, and went quite well overall. He was a bit distracted for the activities but he loves the employee who was hosting for us, who was very good with him. And then when it was done, they all went off and played in various bits of the rest of the museum.

It was also a treat for me, not only because [personal profile] naryrising? and [personal profile] forthright came up, but also because they brought me my vey own tablet! I now have a piece of actually portable modern technology :V I am greatly appreciative! Forthright is very good at making the point buy system for Shoppers Drugmart, and basically managed to get it for free/by buying lots of dishwasher tablets on sale. Because that's how he rolls. They've gotten several other tablets and similar electronics the same way, and I am very happy and grateful to be the recipient in this case! To be fair, I am pretty sure that Nary wanted me to have it so we can stay in even closer contact, but I am quite okay with this! London has theoretical free wifi downtown, and I have been going places like McDonalds with Longpig and the kids where it will be very nice to be able to have some way of communicating with the saner outside world ;) Plus it gives me another device for using skype.

Hmm, what else. I have been doing a little bot of clickwork, but I'm not terribly good at it. I was writing adverts for car rental places in Germany, but they want them all to be very distinct and it is just not worth the time/effort/annoyance! i mean, I knew that's how ti would go. You don't get a reasonable wage for the jobs. But there is a line, I think. We'll see. It might just be more of a learning curve or a matter of experience. I am getting better, but I've yet to have enough of my work approved to make it worth while, either. I'm not giving up on it, but we'll see.

I keep running in to things that make me regret some of my life choices, or make me feel deeply ambivalent, anyway. For example, there is a conference on maritime archaeology and maritime landscapes in Britain this year that dovetails so perfectly with my interests that it is still a little painful. or trying to explain to people why I'm in London, and so on. Part;y bad luck, partly bad choices, partly.... I don't know. On the one had, there have been a lot of circumstances I couldn't really control, but I am often left feeling like I could have done more to mitigate them if I had *really* wanted to succeed. And then I look at how basically content I am in my life currently, and wonder if maybe I didn't actually want it that hard. And if that's the case, then what was I doing with my time and energy, and what do I have to show for it? And of course, always, where do I go from here?

On that note, I have been plotting with Curtana to trying and write some niche-market original stuff for self publication, to see if we can have any success with that. I guess we'll see. I think we have some solid ideas, but we still have to make them into stories before we can even really try and do anything with them.

I also had the independent thoughts that I could try and get some arch field work work, but that I would need good boots (and possibly other gear), and also that I'd kind of like to NPC at least for the local Underworld LARP branch (Ralinwood), but that I would need, at the very least, good boots. Something to consider, as I did finally get my last check from A&M.

So life update - wavering between contentment, ambivalence, and existential crisis. But today I had a very nice day.
Mood:: 'contemplative' contemplative
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posted by [personal profile] elanya at 12:26pm on 02/07/2015 under , , , , ,
The Nephews are downstairs atm watching some kind of tv, I think. We're kind of stuck on what we can do with them right now for Reasons

Kid-related medical TMI! )

So, no play place, no going to the gym... we could take them out to the park I guess!

Yesterday we went out for Canada Day - we had lunch at a really good Mediterranean place (um maybe Lebanese, I'm not 100% sure), and then went to Marble Slab with some coupons. The coupons were for two regular and two small ice creams - Longpig and I got the regulars, kids got the smalls, and [personal profile] wererogue used a different coupon for a milkshake. The smalls were.... not small. They both had BRIGHT BLUE cotton candy ice cream with various mix-ins (sprinkles, marshmallows, gummy bears - Nugsy also had reeces pieces), and Bubby's, in particular, leaked allllllll over. It was adorable! But hella messy! Thanks the the random dad who stopped by and gave us some wipes - we wad napkins and water but I'm not convinced they would have helped @_@ Next time I think we're going to see if they have kid cones :p None of us had dinner after that.

Anyway, that was not what I was going to say! I was going to complain about how I have not had any more interviews and don't generally know what to do with my life :p Because of the Reasons above, I don't want to leave Longpig alone with the kids to deal with stuff on her own, so I'm not going to go out to the temping agency like I had planned until that is all resolved. Likewise, I want to go sort out driving license type things, once I figure out where to do that, but not until this is resolved :/

I wish I had a good way that I could make a little money doing something online, or from home, but I don't have any good ideas. I could try and write, I suppose, but I don't know what I would write, I don't have any good ideas for original fic lately. I'm kind of stalled waiting for character input and comments on the bigger fic I was writing, so I have been doing drabbles, but I wish I had something more in-depth to occupy my brain. I suppose I could start something anyway, but I feel kind of guilty not writing original stuff that I could see because, again, money >.> The only things that have been poking my brain lately though are too long - I wold kind of like to resurrect the story-world I did for the three-day novel I wrote aaaages ago, because that was basically an introduction to what could in theory be a real novel. Except I'm not convinced I'm organized enough to write a real novel, or that I could actually draw something out, or that I could finish it a: ever or b: in any kind of useful time frame.

Well, [personal profile] naryrising did just link me a story contest for a short Lovecraft story thing, though it pays in B&N giftcards, not actual moneys. It could be a good distraction, at least!

I feel like I had more to say, but instead I think I am going to go investigate lunch possibilities and think about a plot >.>
Mood:: 'ambivalent' ambivalent
location: No, the Other London. No, the other London.
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My nights are not being any less disturbed. Saturday night the dogs got sprayed by a skunk. Sunday night it was too humid for me to sleep, and I got up to help one of the kids (Nugsy) at 4:00 and it took a while to get him back to sleep. Last night, there was an EPIC THUNDERSTORM with very loud, close thunder. One of the dogs (Sierra) was freaked out. One of the kids (Bubs) was scared when he woke up to pee and the power was out. The cat was up in my room. Nugsy was up early, and the cat was in the kids room ( a concerning combination...) We'll see what tonight has in store!

I actually feel better rested today, despite getting up early-ish. I have some quiet time atm, and I feel like I should be doing Something, but I'm not sure what. I do need to find some part time/temporary work here, as pets are expensive. I did get up to the archaeology museum today to talk to them about volunteering - I'll be going back on the 6th.

Ummm, what else? I've managed to do a little bit of writing - a couple of drabbles. But I feel like more is within my reach! I just need to decide where to focus... I want to finish the last of my last alphabet drabble challenge which was apparently, uh, from last year >.> So that I can do another one guilt free. I feel like starting something new and longer too, though I have some WIPs that need attention - we'll see. I wanted to try getting back into original fic as well, but that requires more solid ideas than I currently have :p

I think I mentioned already that [personal profile] longpig has gotten me going back to the gym? I need to be going at least twice a week, though, and haven't quite managed that. Hopefully we're going tonight though!

I've also been watching a lot mote TV here, for various reasons. Longpig is addicted to masterchef, so we burned through what was available of that, and she was bitter to realize that she's now caught up and can't binge! I've been watching Rescue Bots with the kidlets, which is adorable and I love it. And Hannibal, which hopefully will be picked up, because it really is quite good. And I watched the opening of the new season of True Detective last night which was slow.... but has some interesting potential. I think my favourite character, though, is Vince Vaughn's character's wife. The only main character whose name I remember is... haaa I forget the actress. But the lady cop, whose name is Antigone. Interesting choice thee, parents ;p

Anyway, that's all I've got. Gonna go walk the dogs before supper :)

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