elanya

Maybe it is the upcoming move? Maybe the changes in my physical space? Maybe the storms? I dunno, but I have been remembering my dreams a lot more lately ;p

Last night I reamed that I had borrowed my friend Ben F's bicycle. It was a large bike with a very sturdy frame, high off the ground, with very wide-set handlebars and some built in electronic features like a headlight and signal lights. It was mostly white with some dark orange, and TAKEI written in large black block letters. Because this was a bike designed by George Takei! I think his husband, Brad, had also designed one.

I don't remember a lot of other specifics (and perhaps there were none, because it was a dream). I remember some anxieties - that the bike would get stolen, that someone would think I had stolen it because I couldn't prove ownership, that I would get arrested for.... improper bike riding? And it would get seized. On the whole there were some strong parallels to some concerns I have about driving. I remember leaving a large group of people and heading to the church I went to when I was a kid (This church, if you are curious!) - around the side where the offices and the gymnasium are. It was night and I had been afraid I would forget to turn on the headlight (see above re: driving - tellingly the lights had the same mechanism to turn on as both of Kennesaw and Persianpenname's cars, which I have been driving a fair amount), and I also remember being stopped at a crossroad, worrying. I made it to the church, and didn't want to leave the bike outside, so I brought it inside and left it in the hallway between the gym and the offices and class rooms. I felt better because someone else had left their bike there, but my borrowed bike was so HUGE that with the other bike there I was afraid no one would be able to get by. And that's when I woke up. I have no idea why I was going to the church, mind, or where I was coming from, or why I had borrowed Ben's bike! I haven't even seen Ben in like 5, or possibly longer. I think my dream-self decided it was his bike because when he lived here he had a funny bike with a long almost inclined seat, so that the handlebars were relatively very high up.

I suppose it was an anxiety dream of sorts, but I mostly woke up feeling baffled and bemused. I hope you have all enjoyed this new installment of adventures in my subconscious :p

I need to do a job app for a temporary job in Waterloo that I probably can't get because I can't drive. Also I am highly dubious that i can get my license here before I leave at this point, and will have to start all over in Canada, possibly more than once, because getting a license in Ontario is a two year process, and who knows if I will actually *be* in Ontario for two years, and if I move provinces again I'd have to start all over again

I thought I had a plan to get up to Canada, but now everything is up in the air again. The people who offered to help me have some pretty serious stuff to deal with and I understand, but I'm still stuck. Maybe they can still take me, but who knows when I will know. I don't have any other good ideas.

I need to do laundry.

I was supposed to run the second half of my oneshot tomorrow, but I don't know if that is going to happen either. At lest that one is mostly on me to decide. I'm leaning towards 'no,' but I really ought to make that call soon. I can't do it next week either as I'd still be down at least one (different) person and possibly more.

I should be packing.

I was planing to finish up stuff for Jukebox this weekend but I am not sure where I put my motivation.

I need to get stuff out of my storage unit and get rid of some of the other stuff in my house.

On the other hand, with nothing going on tomorrow afternoon or evening, I should have time for all the rest of it, right?

Meh. At least I got my new sock yarn in the mail. It is pretty even though it is much more 'mottled grey' and less 'black and white'.

I guess I can make myself get up and take care of some of that, anyway.

I keep thinking about Things I wold lie to post about and then not doing it. organizing my thoughts takes time, and I am often using my time for other non-journaling things.

This afternoon, I helped friend A move furniture to friend B's place, in preparation of friend A moving Far Away and friend B moving back into town. I am leaving in a little bit to go out of town to help friend B move the rest of his things to the new place. My local social map is about to change very dramatically, and I don't know how that is going to shake out - I guess we'll see!

I did a lot of driving today, which was nice. I'm getting more comfortable with it again, but I should really re-read the manual so that i can remember all the things they will want me to be doing that my adult friends who have been driving forever take for granted/don't think about/don't actually ever do.

I was supposed to be house sitting all summer, but the daughter of the house will be home on Friday, so I don't think that will be the case. I am hoping I can coordinate with her some to still borrow the car on occasion to practice driving, but that will require me having people to drive with as well, so we'll see. I really really really want to get my license this summer, when life is still quiet. I really really REALLY want to have it before I have to leave here. I would have liked to have had it years ago, but bureaucracy.

And as so many other times, I started to write more about other things, and got distracted. Now I will be off out of town very shortly!

Ahh well.

But for next time, what would you like to see me write about, internets?

So, I had lost my Texas learners license, and therefore had pushed the extra hassle it would require to get a new one so that I could then practice/study more to take the test again from my mind, because OMG stab me in the EYE I hate that place.

But I have found it! And I really would like to get my real license. So, I am wondering if anyone is willing to take me out driving for practice? I know I'm going to need to brush up on my parallel parking, but I think other than that I really need to review my rules of the road, and should otherwise be okay.

Once I'm confident, I'll need someone to take me to the place at stupid o'clock in the morning, and back again the same day for my test, but that will be in a couple of weeks.

Anyone anyone? Please? I can replay you with baked goods or some other form of (non sexual) remuneration :D

Here is hoping tomorrow is more win than today -_-

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It's an early morning, and thus an early night - just need to pop over to kroger to buy some g's and get some $$$. Whee!

So i called to see about scheduling a driving exam to get my license.

They told me they only make same day appointments, but that an appointment is needed. And that I need to come in that morning, *in person* to make an appointment to take my driver exam, which would presumably be later that day? And when i said morning, she said 'before 7:30, when we open our doors.

What!? What! Fuck you. Shit like this is why it has taken me 15 year to get my license in the first place. I hate everything >:|

ETA: Fortunately, my friend who has been assisting me with this said he would still take me in then, etc, but it is still really ridiculous >:|

I was reading something yesterday discussing how salt was important for humans (and other living things), and how this was partly reflected in the saltiness of bodily fluids. For examples it gave blood, tears, and urine.

Now, I would think that if you are going to discuss saltiness in human body fluids, you might list ones that people would have some actual experience with, in terms of noting the saltiness. I mean seriously. Most people have probably tasted tears and blood. But urine? You really think urine is next on the list of bodily fluids people have had in their mouths?

This was written by a man, but I'm not sure if this was a case of it just not occurring to him (I don' want to make any assumptions here ;), or whether he thought it would be inappropriate to mention semen? Anyway, it popped out at me, and made me think, so I thought I should share with the world :V

In other news, I hope to get to the dmv today and replace my lost temporary license, finally...

First of all, thanks to everyone who replied to my post yesterday (err, not the one about Ironman). You did help me feel better - I'll try and reply to everyone individually but I don't know when!

I have been thinking about other stuff, meanwhile. First off, just for my own records, I woke up with the thought this morning that I should check in to the possibility of staying at and working out of the school on HI when i go down there - if I could rent a classroom or two, that would be idea, especially if they have some kind of kitchen and showers or similar. Also see who I need to talk to, in general, about getting access to government facilities and land. I need to e-mail my contact there asap about various things anyway. I can start that today.

Also, I had a dream that my shoes came from Zappos today, but that i had actually ordered them over the phone, and instead of a pair f shoes they sent me one that was "size 2" - a baby shoe - and one that was size 8, which was also too small. How odd.

Also, i have been thinking about this summer. My friend belryan (recent LJ addition and I have no idea if he's done anything with it other than join - I haven't seen any posts ;p) is going to Turkey all summer, and is leaving tomorrow. However, he has kindly and bravely lent me the use of his car for the summer! So I am hoping I can seriously get some driving practice in.

On the other hand, it has recently occurred to me that if I *don't* get a job here for the summer, there isn't a whole lot keeping me here. i can work on papers and do research elsewhere, especially f I raid the library before I go. So, um, why *would* I stay> My initial thought was that if I was planning to go home for hazel's wedding, why wouldn't I just go earlier? But then again, I don't know how dad and Jennifer would feel about having me live on their couch all summer with my dog, and I haven't really talked to them about bringing Jola either. But maybe there is a way I could do it in stages. I'm not sure... Something to think about, but I am going to be brave and send an e-mail around the department today as well. But if I don't find anything, I could potentially make my way up there more slowly, depending on things like, say, having people who are willing to put me and Jola up who are on flight routes and such. We'll see. I'd like to get my license before I go, and I am going to the Bahamas. I'm not good with plans.

Now, I need a shower, wooh!

I finally got my learner's today! Wooh! Go me!

I'll get there eventually, mmm'kay? :V

Also this song is the king of my world at the moment