elanya

Argh, argh.

I do this a lot. I go as long as possible without real social human contact, and then when i do reach out for it (instead of burying myself in my computer and clinging desperately to internet interactions of various sorts, or work, or various creative outlets, or some combination thereof), it isn't always there.

This weekend I'd made plane, but they fell through because I prioritized a game. Tonight I watched some TV with a friend online, and (I suspect) missed my window for trying to contact some people. Now it is too late, really, and I'm still home alone, the same way I have been every day since, um, Wednesday when I got back. I saw Megan and Aaron briefly when I took Jola to the Vet, and I saw Cemal and some of the department secretaries when I went in to school on Friday, but none of that counts as meaningful human interaction. Now I'm feeling shut in and cranky, and trying not to take it out on Jola, who only wants to play alllll the time, and go outside every two minutes.

Argh, Argh.

I think I am supposed to go to Buttermilk by this time next weekend also - I've lost track a little there, and I need to confirm whether or not Jola is taken care of (cheez_ball - should I call?). I have follow up stuff form my trip I really should jump on, and other work as well. Instead, i've been staying up too late, sleeping too much during the day, and indulging some of my geekiest whims - nothing wrong with that on the face of things, but it isn't contributing to me feeling like a productive adult right now. Also now I am feeling more blah and it is killing my creativity regardless.

Bleh.

I need people :/