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elanya at 05:30pm on 03/12/2017 under gaming, life, sa, tumblr crosspost, twitter crosspost, work
elanya at 05:30pm on 03/12/2017 under gaming, life, sa, tumblr crosspost, twitter crosspost, workI meant to post more Windsorcon stuff, but I was tired/busy... I did write my usual post con drabbles on MOnday.
I had pretty seep post-social funk at the beginning of the week and had a hard time making myself do, well, anything. I did do things, at least sorta, but not much of them. Work was being depressing - everything is so uncertain all the time and it can be hard to deal with. I know that the museum doesn't think it can maintain my position past my contract date at this point, so unless things turn well around by then I will need to look elsewhere. But this job is not really going to have prepared me for anything much else. Well no - that's a lie. I will have to work to make it look good on paper, though. Also a lot of the stuff I am currently working on is stuff I know will be de-prioritized or even mothballed, so it is hard to keep up the momentum. By the end of the week, though things were super busy. Friday was kind of a blur.
I think that one thing I need to do is, like, sit down and really think about what I want out of my life - what I like and what I want to change and how I can achieve those things. I feel like I turned down a path away from what I wanted, or had thought I wanted, and have basically been costing along since then. It is a really interesting time to be working in archaeological collections care in Ontario though. The Truth and Reconciliation movement and also the implementation of UNDRIP have such interesting effects, and I wish I could engage more at that level. But then I also question if it is my place, and so on. I ran into the concept of rematriation (as opposed to repatriation) the other day and it was just really inspiring to think about. But I don't think I have either the authority to d anything with that idea at work. And then I see all these gross patriarchal structures being replicated and it is depressing to know that we have this vision and it is both so much better than anything else going, and yet so deeply flawed. Anyway. Mixed feelings and a lack of direction is not doing me a lot of good.
In other news.... I finished a scarf at Windsorcon, and I finished a sock on the bus as well... I've picked up an older WIP for knitting that I set aside util I'd finished Pulled by the Sunset. I'm over wordcount on my yuletide and have a fair idea where the story is going. I have a pinch hit and I know what I want to write for it as well. I did a bunch of cleaning this weekend too, mostly vacuuming, though I also cleaned the upstairs bathroom. I also went to a local spin-in yesterday for a few hours, and it was really nice, and we had the first session of the new Ye Olde Timey Adventure world game this afternoon, which was also fun.
Now I'm going to go take the dogs out before dinner since Longpig are going out to a friend's to watch a movie.
I had pretty seep post-social funk at the beginning of the week and had a hard time making myself do, well, anything. I did do things, at least sorta, but not much of them. Work was being depressing - everything is so uncertain all the time and it can be hard to deal with. I know that the museum doesn't think it can maintain my position past my contract date at this point, so unless things turn well around by then I will need to look elsewhere. But this job is not really going to have prepared me for anything much else. Well no - that's a lie. I will have to work to make it look good on paper, though. Also a lot of the stuff I am currently working on is stuff I know will be de-prioritized or even mothballed, so it is hard to keep up the momentum. By the end of the week, though things were super busy. Friday was kind of a blur.
I think that one thing I need to do is, like, sit down and really think about what I want out of my life - what I like and what I want to change and how I can achieve those things. I feel like I turned down a path away from what I wanted, or had thought I wanted, and have basically been costing along since then. It is a really interesting time to be working in archaeological collections care in Ontario though. The Truth and Reconciliation movement and also the implementation of UNDRIP have such interesting effects, and I wish I could engage more at that level. But then I also question if it is my place, and so on. I ran into the concept of rematriation (as opposed to repatriation) the other day and it was just really inspiring to think about. But I don't think I have either the authority to d anything with that idea at work. And then I see all these gross patriarchal structures being replicated and it is depressing to know that we have this vision and it is both so much better than anything else going, and yet so deeply flawed. Anyway. Mixed feelings and a lack of direction is not doing me a lot of good.
In other news.... I finished a scarf at Windsorcon, and I finished a sock on the bus as well... I've picked up an older WIP for knitting that I set aside util I'd finished Pulled by the Sunset. I'm over wordcount on my yuletide and have a fair idea where the story is going. I have a pinch hit and I know what I want to write for it as well. I did a bunch of cleaning this weekend too, mostly vacuuming, though I also cleaned the upstairs bathroom. I also went to a local spin-in yesterday for a few hours, and it was really nice, and we had the first session of the new Ye Olde Timey Adventure world game this afternoon, which was also fun.
Now I'm going to go take the dogs out before dinner since Longpig are going out to a friend's to watch a movie.
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