elanya

Today was a day of intense grumpyness.

Tomorrow may just be annoyingly chaotic.

I am hovering at the edge of things at work, and there's nothing to do in the margins. I feel like, on the whole, I ought to be better at finding ways in if that's what I want, or finding other things to do if it isn't, but no, I'm not doing anything. I feel frustratingly useless. I'm sure there must be something I could be doing that would be helpful but when I do try things I just get hung up when I need outside input. It is not a very satisfying life, and it is leading me to be easily frustrated with other things. Or maybe that's something else? I really can't tell anymore if something is a legitimate concern or just my levels of frustration being generally out of control and seeking any possible outlet. Ugh.

Today is a day of intense tiredness. I'd almost blame PM's but the timing is all wrong. Ugh, bodies. Ovulation, maybe? Because I need everything to get more intense, that's just peachy.

Work was fine, tomorrow is our Strategic Retreat, which is a little ominously named, especially since it has the potential to determine my future job prospects... And also the last day of filming.

We had a family meeting to talk about how we need to do better at keeping house... I guess we'll see if that has any impact.

Early bed for me I think. I'm wiped despite a mini-nap earlier.