elanya

I stayed up way too late last night, forgetting that i am supposed to go to the gym this morning. how can I even forget something that is a regular weekly routine, you ask. I'm not very good with routines, really. Even long established ones. I do things like not realize I haven't eaten breakfast or had tea or, say brushed my hair or teeth. I can't take any medication on a regular daily basis (which is why i have only tried the pill once). I have forgotten that I have certain classes half way through the term! I just don't do well with routines. I can't do things for weeks on end, every day, and then just, one day, not. And if I don't realize it, then there goes that habit! 9Usually I'll realize it at some point -_-). So, anyway, I didn't remember the gym until about quarter to two last night, and now I am sleeeeepyyyyyyy. But I *do* have tea.

I have been self-sabotaging myself in other ways. I gave myself two goals this summer, and I haven't really done much towards either. i want to finish the Cursed Wreck, but I have barely looked at it aside from one lone writing session in the (an?) airport. And I want to write a publishable academic paper based on my piracy research. I have done so little with this that it is painful! I have other Bahamas related research that I should be doing, but haven't started.*

I let myself fall in to bad habits. I created a whole huge distracting writing thing (which has been *great* fun!) to focus on. I have even been neglecting my serials for that. Heck I even have a new section of shadows to type, and have had for a week or so! In fact, i just thought of another idea for a porn entry that I'll probably start this morning in my book, which is rapidly becoming full of smut. I stay up waaaay too late watching Bleach. I have been taking entire days to do chores and then telling myself that vacuuming and laundry count as a productive day, even if they only take an hour or two, tops.

So I want to try and stop this. Lists are a good start, making myself post about what I have done is also useful. I am also going to start limiting my 'fluff' writing time, and my TV watching (sorry Cat :p).

So here is my list for today:
Gym
Dishes
Laundry (maybe)
Dusting (maybe)
E-mail Kevin
At least two hours on Bahamas article, which can include looking at journal submission criteria
at least an hour looking over and writing on Cursed Wreck
Market research for various stories, including Happiness Man, Keep Off the Grass, and Cursed Wreck
Driving lesson tonight

Anything else I get done today is fluff!

*I have to say, I think that part of this is that my research trip was really not very encouraging, and so it is hard to be motivated. but it wasn't *discouraging*, necessarily... Just that what i need to do now is so much more daunting....

( Book Review )

(I hope this doesn't come off as too pretentious - I was reading the book to judge its academic merit, and that is what I focused on here :o)