elanya

I did not take a bath afterall. I wanted to get *something* done tonight, since the rest of my evening seemed like such a waste.

So, what have I got? A mess. What else have I got? A pattern for the red velvet photpants part of my hallowe'en costume. Clearly, this is the most important part. I also have the outside bit of my (also red velvet) cape. If I feel extra ambitious, I will line it. But really, someday I'm just going to use that fabric to make a corset, so I'm not all that fussed. It will go nicely with said red-velvet hotpants. Someday woudln't even be all that far away of I had a credit card to order the stuff I need... :p

I am getting sick. I blame Katie, who has the plague - probably caught indirectly through her fiancé. He works in a public school, see. I am tired, and my nose is stuffed up. I think this is at least partly why I have been so cranky lately.

Lack of sleep makes me cranky, I know. I find it hard to concentrate on things, which makes me frustrated, which makes me short tempered. I didn't have too much trouble getting to sleep last night, and I didn't wake up in the middle of the night, as I had been doing the rest of the week, but I'm still tired today.

I don't think that greenville is going to be very good for me, as a person, in the long run. Living here is frustrating, since I can't get out and do things. I have no idea whewre I even need to go to look into getting a driver's licence, let alone trying to get insurance, or whatever else I would need to get a car and a license (on the plus side, their graduated licensing system doesn't apply to older people). I can't get a credit card here, it seems, because I have no credit rating and there isn't anyone who could co-sign for me (and how ridiculous is *that*, anyway? I had a visa forever...). I'm not sure if I can get one through canada either, or what my best option there would be. I am thinking about e-mailing my banker and asking about some things, like if I might want to get a US checking account through TD, and a US Visa, or what. I lack freeedom, here, and it is stifling. It means that the few outlets I do have are that much more important, and technology and other factors are conspiring so that I can't seem to enjoy them either. I really don't want to have to start paying for DSL, since I am already paying (indirectly) for wireless, and since I went out and bought a wireless adapter, too. I am still trying to figure out the most economical phone plan I can work with. I'm afraid that there is really no such thing as heap phone service, though. I doesn't seem to exist. it;s ridiculous. I hate it.

Greenville is not even an especially pretty place. It is okay, but there is nothing here that impresses me. It is just sort of mediocre. Mediocre weather, mediocre landscaping, mediocre people. I feel like I am somehow isolating myself from people here, but I don't know if it is just all in my head or what. Even the things I get invited to do are not ones that I can take advantage of. People offer to help me do things, but really, they have so much other stuff to worry about... meh.

I really wish that I could find someway to enjoy myself here that wasn't so fleeting, or riddled with its own special frustrations that lie beyond my control. And that isn't even starting with all the school-based frustrations. I'm rambling... I started writing this to kill time, and it has turned into self-indulgent whinging again. Life is so hard, nobody likes me :P

meh.

Is anyone going to be around tonight? Is there the possibility of any kind of online socializing or game playing of any type? Let me know! I am going to go lie down for a bit, and then finish collecting things to include in a Mystery Letter. And probably, also, at some point, I shoudl have dinner, yes? :)

Through sheer force of will (and shopping*), and maybe a few other little secret tricks, I have made myself be in a better mood! Now I am just sort of sleepy (I blame the cold), but that's okay. thats' what naps are for right? And I have other things that are exciting that I can do if no one *is* around, so it is okay. I can work on the next section of my Daniel story, make my hotpants (!!! They are SO HOT!) or read more letters about Blackbeard and the shiftiness of Tobias Knight, the colonial secretary of North carolina in 1718, and also the customs commissioner! Its exciting stuff. You known your colony has a problem when another governor has to come in and get rid of the pirates, and *your* governor gets upset! History is so nifty :D

*shopping: my plague addled brain decided that it had had enough of reading letters for the time being, and that there were some things that I could/should go get up at the mall. I took the bus! It was about an hour, round trip, of being on the bus, for about an hour of being in a shopping area. I browsed through the mall. It was a mall. Then I crossed the street and went to K-Mart (Wow, they still have those? It survives in a city with a 24-hour Walmart? I'm impressed!)! I bought a new bookbag (blue!), some shorts (blue also, for the gym. Hard to work out in skirts, ne?), an umbrella covered with postcards of famous historical landmarks (a nod to my mom, who never believed in drab looking umbrellas), two! pairs of knee high socks (1 white, 1 black), and some white tights (2 kinds to try) for my costume. No longjohns to be found, alas.

That's all! *huggles*