elanya

Grim an cheerless describes both today's unplesant weather and my current personal drearyness.

It is cold, and has been on the verge of rain all day. Everyone I talk to is tired anfd even a little irritable. I am not exempt from this.

This is the first tuesaday in an age when I have had nothing to do. I had a doctor's appointment this afternoon: my yearly spread-and-scrape, to put it quaintly. Inspired by ladyiolanthe, I asked if I shoudl be concerned about my cracking knees, and was given some exercises that might help. I also asked about allergy testing because I think I am develloping mild allergies to some fruits. whee. Joel drove me up, but I wasn't sure how long it all would take, so I walked home. It was neither tiring nor inspiring. I sang some Leonard Cohen and am dissapointed that I can never remember all the words to the first two verses of The Window. I sang The Captain for the first time in a while, and there was a line that made me think of one of curtana 's characters, Jero. ~There is no decent place to stand in a massacre, but if a woman takes your hand then go and stand with her...~ Maybe someday Lerah will quote it at him.

I came home and had some mail. I got my letter from ECU, and some immigration forms that I'll need to get into the states, plus some medical things they want filled out (right after my apointment, of course). Hazel's long-awaited DVD of Dead Ringrs came also, much to her delight. I talked to Steve while he procrastinated working, and he relayed to her the arrival, via Rob.

I am lonely. There isn't anyone around. I napped but I was woken up by the phone, which was annoying, and couldn't go back to sleep. I suppose Jodie must still be at work. I called the Robbinses but Bronwen is busy and her sister is napping. Mr Cat is also working, I think, or at least he told Jodie yesterday that he wouldn't be able to come down tonight or tomorrow. I'm hungry but I don't feel like cooking. I want to not be working, and to have fun and exciting prople to do fun and exciting things with. I don't even know if I want real people to socialize with, but even the internet is empty. I don't have the money to go and do anything exciting by myself, either. I have a movie pass but the only thing good playing is troy, and it runs too late for me to want to see it again tonight, alone. And frankie told me what happened at the end, anyway (I asked).

I should probably eat something, but I don't feel like cooking and I am not espeically hungry (or at least not yet).I guess I have some gaming related things I can work on but I just feel generally meh and uninspired.

Did I mention it is cold here? brrrrr.....