elanya

I had a very random recollection today. First off, I don't remember the past very well. There are whole parts of my life that I just don't recall. Apparently I was really severely bullied in grade two or so, but I remember next to nothing of it. My mom has been telling the story of how she and dad went in to talk to the Principle and got the guy changed out of my class, but really, I only can even *vaguely* recall anything about this because she brought it up. If she hadn't, I don't think I'd have ever thought of it again. Rob has mentioned this to me before too... Off hand comments that I can't recall, aloing the lines of "I remember when so and so used to really harass you at school', but *I* don't remember. Now, this preamble is just to establish that I don't really often have things like this to recall, and I don't know why this one came to mind.

Oh, wait, yes I do, but let me tell the story first, and then explain as I go.

There was this Guy I used to like in Junior high. He was a real prep, of course, and I was not. I may have also liked him in Highschool, but I can't remember exactly. These things kind of all blur together for me, but I know the event in question took place in junior high, for 100% sure. This guy, it turns out, dated a friend of mine twice (curtana!), and so maybe some of you will be able to figure out who it was based on that info and other forthcoming details. I think part of the reason I am recalling this is that she mentioned this fact in her journal a few weeks ago, and then recently I was telling Frankie and/or Lisa a story about him... which is that he used to really really like the Barenaked Ladies, and they had a concert in town, and I went and bought tickets and went to the show, thinking I might see him there, or else I might get to gloat. I bought a plaid hat. I did get to gloat the next day. But he was mostly seriously bitter that he hadn't been able to go, and told me that I hated him, which kind of killed the joy of it all.

Anyway!

This guy, who I liked, was in the SRC, one year (president, if I recall correctly). And I can't remember the reason, but he said that one day I should drop by after school to the office and... something. I really have no idea what the premise was. Or what exactly happened when we got there. I mostly remember that somehow, we wound up seriously making out! It was exciting, and unexpected, but also a little scary, because I think I thought/realized even at the time that he wasn't really going to much associate with me in front of other people, or what have you. He was basically taking advantage of my crush. I was a little afraid of where things were going, exactly, but I had some ideas. What did I do? I escaped. I had told my parents that I was going to stay after school, but they were picking me up at regular 'band gets out' time. So I broke off, said I had to go because my mom was waiting, and made a rapid exit. I don't remember any details of how far things went except I'm 90% sure there was no clothes removed. Anyway, it was never mentioned again, and it never happened again. We were never closer than acquaintances, though at times we verged on ennemies. I really don't know what I thought I liked about him. He was a stuck up ass, mostly, but also kind of quirky. He is the one who first introduced me to They Might Be Giants, but only vaguely enough that when other people really told me about them I realized they were slightly familiar. Of cours, I may be remembering that part wrong, but I *do* know he listened to them, and I remarked on it at some point.

What is the point of this entry? I'm not really sure. It is late and I have had too much caffeine to sleep, but not enough to allow the coherence necessary for doing anything that requires actual concentration. This is proved by the fact that I just wrote 'conversation' rather than 'concentration' and then had to fix it.

Also, I got an e-mail from ECU saying they got my application. Apparently I need to send a Statement of Purpose, though I didn't see this mentioned anywhere in the application info I as given. I'll look again. I'll do it anyway, though. They need the reference letters too, of course, but those should be forthcoming soonishly. Also the guy who e-mailed me is excited that I am Canadian, and from the Maritimes. Apparently, he went to Western, and taught in Ontario and Newfoundland! So that is encouraging. I'm pretty sure I'll get in. I know Dr. Black loves me. He always answers my e-mails as 'Dave B', and he told Sylvia I was one of his best students ever! *dance* anyway, things are looking good! I just have to get the bank things sorted out, because I don't think she understood quite what I needed from her. Ahh well.

I think I might try reading. I should get some sleep. I am supposed to so something with Joel tomorrow (possibly watch the rest of Firefly). I need to figure out what I want to do for VD, since it is a week away, as well. I also need a present!