elanya

I hate the bees. I give them the entire blame for this, because otherwise, I can't imagine that I'd be capable of such pathetic overemotional response to something so ultimatley trivial.

Playing Diabl;otin. I was so psyched for game tonight, ever since, well, relaly ever since last week, I've just been jonesing for a little bit of gaming. I had exciting Diablotin dreams last night, too, but I don't remember any of them. Anyway, I must just be really off my game tonight, or something, but I basically horribly mishandled the one scene I got. I didn't even realize it until it was too late. Poor phrasing, misinterpretation, and of course, not even thinking to use any of my skills. never even crosed my mind. Anyway, oh well. I messed up gaming. And yet I feel so incredibly upset and frustrated, like I have failed at some terribly important thing that I will never be able to rectify. It doesn't make any sense. I just hope it passes so I can work on my classes for tomorrow. I feel so frustrated and also so wretchedly pathetic for even being bothered by it.