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Day One
Today was a day of intense grumpyness.
Tomorrow may just be annoyingly chaotic.
I am hovering at the edge of things at work, and there's nothing to do in the margins. I feel like, on the whole, I ought to be better at finding ways in if that's what I want, or finding other things to do if it isn't, but no, I'm not doing anything. I feel frustratingly useless. I'm sure there must be something I could be doing that would be helpful but when I do try things I just get hung up when I need outside input. It is not a very satisfying life, and it is leading me to be easily frustrated with other things. Or maybe that's something else? I really can't tell anymore if something is a legitimate concern or just my levels of frustration being generally out of control and seeking any possible outlet. Ugh.
Tomorrow may just be annoyingly chaotic.
I am hovering at the edge of things at work, and there's nothing to do in the margins. I feel like, on the whole, I ought to be better at finding ways in if that's what I want, or finding other things to do if it isn't, but no, I'm not doing anything. I feel frustratingly useless. I'm sure there must be something I could be doing that would be helpful but when I do try things I just get hung up when I need outside input. It is not a very satisfying life, and it is leading me to be easily frustrated with other things. Or maybe that's something else? I really can't tell anymore if something is a legitimate concern or just my levels of frustration being generally out of control and seeking any possible outlet. Ugh.