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I am terrible at regular updates. It is known.

Works proceeds. It is worky. I have a clearer idea of what all I need to be doing and in what order, though, which is nice. Right now I am working on the Pomona glass, which is really pretty, especially the stuff in the Cornflower patter. I'll put an example piece below the thingy what you just clicked (probably):


Oooh pretty - we don't have one like this, but it is all similar, with that frosted look and the ruffled amber stained rims.

We are planning on doing a Zombie Walk this fall to raise money for the conservation of outdoor sculptures that need a little professional TLC, and we've started filming some promo videos for it, with the student film group Aggie SWAMP (I have no idea what that stands for though ;p). The first one has been released, and you can see it behind - no it's not behind anything now it is RIGHT HERE!


I'm not in this one, but I'm in the one that they're working on processing now, a.k.a. the next one. As a zombie, of course.

What else is worth reporting in my life... I've been playing around a lot with Storium, which is an online story game thingy that is currently running a big Kickstarter Campaign. If you contribute (or if you just get invited by someone running a game) you can play with the beta stuff. I am in....too many 'test' games, and am running one myself, which is a sort of neolithic Fantasy sort of deal. Sort of a mashup of "stone age" technologies plus spirits and curses and so on. So far so good. I keep threatening to have the party attacked by rabid, plague infested wolverines, a.k.a. plaguerines. They don't like that very much, for some reason. I need to move things a long in that game soon. Maybe if I finish the data entry for the box I'm working on now I'll do it before I leave. There is no reason I shouldn't really, unless I get super lazy! Or if this entry goes longer than expected! If you are on Storium, (possibly if you aren't?) and are curious, you can see the game so far here.

Still working on the Assassin's Creed IV let's play - I'll let people know when it is up! I think we're close with the first episode. Or, if you count like a programmer/wererogue, the 0th episode ;p

What else, what else. Do you want to know what TV I'm watching? Hannibal, Person of Interest... I guess that's about it at the moment. I don't know if I'd watching either without the external social motivators, but we all know how terrible I am at watching things on my own (I'm terrible and I don't). I'm sure there is a ton of good TV out there worth watching but, enh. I'd rather write, or chat/hangout with peeps (online or off), or game. I saw and enjoyed the new Captain America movie, or course. I was pleased at Natasha's necklace. I loved Sam. It gave me its intended feels punches, especially the final stinger, but I think I find them less overwhelming than some. I'm generally pretty reserved, feelswise (this may be an understatement).

I have been having a few conversations with folks lately that have me thinking about how reserved I am, and how I tend to be exceedingly private, and how I feel that creates a lot of emotional space between myself and people I like and consider friends. I'm terrible at really sharing things - I mostly assume that people are not interested in hearing about me, or that if they are their reasson are somehow suspicious, or that my feelings or experiences are not really relevant or important. And to a large extend I am just not a very emotional person, so I often don't have a lot to share maybe? I don't know - I think I'm mixing two things here - that I am *emotionally* reserved in that I don't tend to have a lot of overwhelming emotions, and that I am... personally? reserved in that I am very private and don't tend to talk a lot about myself, or at least certain aspects of my life. I consider myself open - I don't think I'm actively trying to hide things, I'm just not likely to talk about them unprompted. I've been thinking a lot about this lately (and again how it does sort of create distance between myself and people I know), and it feels odd to even be writing about it here. I will probably put this behind a cut.

I had a roomate a year or so ago who would tell you pretty much anything about herself if you asked and sometimes if you didn't - she sort of wore it as a shield, I think, like if she put things out there it was harder to use them against her. But then she was also very careful about what sorts of things she put out and about keeping control of situations where that information was revealed. I used to think that my approach was very different, but maybe not? She would always keep the door to her room closed off, whereas I always kept mine open, and this there is something of a metaphor in there, but I still haven't sorted it out in any meaningful way. I think the real point is that I am feeling that distance more lately in some ways, and also seeing the extent to which I am responsible for actively creating that distance, and I'm not sure what I think of it all. I feel very peripheral in some ways, but I don't know how to bridge that distance and comfortably keep my personal "space".